The Final Countdown

As the countdown begins into the last few weeks of my second pregnancy
I am overcome with a huge sense of relief, I am beginning to see light at the end of this long Tunnel.

Over the past weeks i have been back in hospital and i started to go into labour having contractions but the Specialists stopped this with injections as it was brought on by me having yet another infection.
I was in so much pain and so uncomfortable i just was at the point i had had enough and wanted Lil Miss Bug out.

I was set to go in and get prepped for my csection then at last minute it was called off because the injections worked and stopped the labour.
I at this point after being through the mill and back yelled, cryed then screamed at specialists pleading for this to stop and to just let me have Ladybug out, but they were just not having it saying (shes far to small and her lungs are under developed)

Hayden managed to race to Mackay and get a flight to Brisbane then taxi to hospital to be told things had no been put on hold..

I am so grateful he did though (as i had said he probably should wait till the morning then come if need be)..
I really needed him that night and was so upset and in such horrific pain they allowed Hayden to stay in hospital with me then dosed me up on Meds and sleeping pills to basically knock me out for the night , As the pains i was getting was excruciating.

After being sent home and told i must be on bed rest until baby arrives i slowly started to feel a bit better and manged to do a bit more each day.
(The chances of me staying in bed all day and night are non existent, Lets be realistic you cant stay in bed all that time with a toddler who doesn't understand and wants there Mummy.

I have been getting really bad anxiety about the impending Csection i will be having
I no its stupid and millions of women around the world have had them and do daily.
Its just the thought of being awake and staying still all the while knowing what they are doing to my body and me trying to remain calm and not panic.
I don't cope to well with needles and didn't have any pain relief at all with Aaliyah so the whole thing in all honesty FREAKS me out...

There is nothing i can do about it though i have no choice as our wee bundle is stuck and cannot turn herself and there is no option of the Drs trying to turn her as her foot is stuck in my Cervix in a footleg breech position.

Amazingly Lil Miss Bug has had a huge growth spurt and is weighing in at a huge 6pound 3 ounces already which means she will end up being bigger than Aaliyah was at birth.
Its astounding to think this is possible as Dr's and Specialists said she was Teeny and far to small for her size and that 92% of babies born would be bigger than her, But yet she has this huge growth spurt and has gone flying up her growth chart.
Part of me wonders if its due to the steroids drugs meds etc that have caused this but i guess the main thing and only important thing is that she is OK ....

I am 37weeks pregnant but according to NZ scans would be 38 but at 30weeks the Specialists decide to put me back a week and not take into account the x2 19week scans in NZ, very frustrating knowing that you are further along than they now believe..

I feel guilty for not having Miss Ladybugs nursery finished as when i was pregnant with Aaliyah her nursery was finished long in advance but with me being constantly sick it has delayed the room being finished and I'm now struggling to find last minute things to finish it off.

Having been sick again all week with yet another bug i wonder in amazement at how Miss Bug can grow so much when her Mummy is so sick and cant keep a thing down ????

I long to get back to my normal bubbly self, Full of boundless energy and be able to go out walking and do anything i want to again and get my body back into shape but most of all
I look forward to the moment we met our very own precious miracle baby


A little bit of heaven
Drifted down from above -
A handful of happiness,
A heartful of love.
The mystery of life,
So sacred and sweet
The giver of joy
So deep and complete.
Precious and priceless,
So lovable, too
The world's sweetest miracle,
Baby girl, is you.