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The Question is where to from here

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This has been bothering me so much & i can't get it off my mind. Aaliyah starts school in 2014 & im kind of just unsure what is best, Other Mums at Dancing asked me which school we picked & i said "oh im unsure" they were appalled & said they had already had some Prep school visits for th 2014 School class & others said there children had been enrolled since 6-12months (AT SCHOOL). I'm gutted i honestly dont no where we will be, i had always always wanted my Babies to go to Richmond School. We left to do our OE under the assumption it would be for 2years & then we would be back to our Homeland. Within that 2 years Life changes, The World changes, The Economy changes ... Everything Changes Life goes by so fast & for the first few years you can just roll with the punches & go where the work is & move around but once Children become School age you just can't do that & you need to be some what settled somewhere.

Spanner in the works

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The past few weeks have started taking a toll on me and i havnt been my usual positive self, after yet another set back last week & discovering another major health issue i am just so exhausted from it all. I have realised i am Not coping at the moment with my health, i just cannot help but feel pissed off with the world & ripped off. I have been talking to a lot of people over the past week including my Dr who have suggested i need Grief counselling as i am most probably grieving a "Normal" Life lost. Apparently its quite common for people like myself & so many others have said it helped so much... I am just so annoyed i cant do everything "Normal" people would be able to do at my age.  I can't run ! Jeepers i am not allowed to even go on a walk, walking was always my way of relieving stress & now that has been taken away from me as well. So whats left is me and my ever expanding thighs feeling pissed off. I just dont no what the

A Little bit of Funk

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Since having Aaliyah at the back of my mind i have always thought why isn't there a broader rang of clothes available? Everything is quite simple & basic in the shops & things that are different & unique are hard to come by or cost a fortune. Whilst living in Roxby Downs the idea of selling my own Kiddies clothes had swirled around in my head but i decided against taking the plunge figuring it was a big risk & maybe more trouble than it was worth. i have always shopped around, trying to find things a bit different than the norm for my children. A pet hate is seeing 10 kids all wearing things from the same place  but i understand that there is just limited options out there. People have always commented on what i dress my children in & given nice compliments along the way also stating they "wish we sold things like that here"  Having worked in Retail my whole career & also being a Manager i feel i have picked some good knowledge up

Toddler Tamer

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My daughter Aaliyah is into her third week of Pre school (Child care in Australia) & i must say she is totally thriving . We both knew she was more than ready to take the step into Pre school but just didn't realise how much she would benefit from it. The difference in attitude & temperament has been really noticeable. Aaliyah is a hugely active child who loves to do things & be occupied all the time & has been this way from the moment she could crawl so having her just at home with me most of the time has hindered her growth to some extent, and as bad as that sounds its actually the truth as children learn so much from others and absorb a lot so with my health being poorly that has got to effect the wee midget to a certain degree. Picking up the habits from other children her age can be both positive and negative & although there has been a couple of odd "words" pop out of her mouth there has been a lot of Positives come out som
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Week 3 has come around quickly on my new Chemo meds for my Arthritis & i must say i am having server side effects. I hate sitting around doing nothing , I just have far to much going on up stairs to be ok sitting around taking it (easy) so to speak But these Meds are totally knocking me about in a big way. I have been getting very blurred vision & itchy gunky eyes, last week it got so bad i pulled my eye lashes out to relieve the burning (not  just a couple either)  but it didn't help. I am constantly nauseous , dizzy and so fatigued its a struggle to do anything. For the last two weeks i have taken my meds on a Thursday arvo & then i get uncomfortable and sore and sick so bad that i don't get much sleep Thursday night then Friday is a write off.                                   A BIG Fat Write Off !!!!! I'm foggy in the head & not myself at all i am constantly sick & hardly manage to eat anything. Headaches have been constant &
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How to make the decision of how many children to have? That is the big question but there is so much more to it than meets the eye. In an idealistic world i think i would have 4 children In all honestly i think thats how many i would like. I love having my children around me & the thought of when they grow older is quite beautiful, I like the big family thing & although it would be crazy busy and full on a lot of the time that sits ok with me. Thing is its not as easy as saying ok thats how many we will have. I worry that after having Lacey-Jay its a sign we shouldn't push our boundaries and take it as a warning that we shouldn't attempt a 3rd or even a 4th. My body doesn't do Pregnancy its trouble after trouble. Money's a big thing & as much as it sounds kinda materialistic you do have to factor that into the equation. Would you be able to afford to have the lifestyle you may so wish? Or just live comfortably? Two children is common

A walk in my shoes

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After a recent visit with a new Dr i walk away feeling over whelmed with all the information. My brain trys to store this correctly & as i try to get my head around what will now be my everyday existence i cant quite comprehend where to start first. Boy was i not expecting that one. Thing is is have Psoriatic Arthritis which i knew and to a lot of people i think the over all feeling is "Arthritis yeah heaps of people millions in fact have it" Thing is there is so many different types & i was non the wiser myself until now. I kinda had the idea that it was just something that effects every person when they become older.. How naive was i to think this was something that i could push to the back of my head buried so deep that i wouldn't have to accept and deal with it. Yes i have this & turns out i have it really bad !! See i have had the effects of this for just under a year now and already this is attacking both my knees my ankles, all my f
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In just a few more days my Baby girl Lacey-Jay will turn the big 1. The first year in a child's life goes by at such a fast pace,  They really don't stay babies for very long at all. Lacey-Jay is such a character & really quite funny to be around! Being such a light sleeper if you even happen to walk past her door ever so quietly it will awaken her  & shes up kicking around in the bed laughing. Each night before i go to bed i sneak in and tuck her back in nice and snugly warm to which she smartly opens her blinkers & graces me with the biggest Gummy smile wriggles her wee legs then rolls back over & back to sleep. All around the house no matter where you could be you can always here a "Aaliyah Aaliyah" if Aaliyah isn't by her side. To say she is so close with her big Sister isn't enough she just idolizes her & wants to be her. They play beautifully together 90% of the time & theres chuckles at each ot