Fulfilment

Who would have known that becoming a mother was my biggest accomplishment so far and to give me the biggest fulfilment in life.

I cherish the time i spend with our daughter Aaliyah.

Coming from someone who hasn't had any experience what so ever with children,with never having really had an interest with kiddies and never been one to babysit or anything like that i truly didn't realize how much joy they bring into your life.

I have always been a happy go lucky type of person, One that's always happy and easily excitable and sometimes a lil over the top ..Best part is now i have someone who just loves the more silly and over the top i be...

You no -
"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs in my field, Since the payment is pure love xx"

From the moment my baby arrived my whole world changed and no matter how many people tell you a million different things from the moment you become pregnant, Nothing and i mean nothing can fully prepare you for motherhood.

You can learn the basics of how to change nappies, birth techniques, sleep patterns and the long list of other things but not until your wee angel arrives into the world do you really understand what comes with being a mummy.

I found the same goes with childbirth itself but its true you do learn to trick your brain in to forgetting just how hard that labour is.
Speaking of labour isn't it an amazing thing what a women's body is created to be able to do!
It blows me away whenever i think about this.

So with all this motherhood really is mind blowing, From the moment Aaliyah arrived i became this over protective being that's sole purpose was to cater for this baby's all.She was so tiny and fragile and the fact that i brought this little lady into the world is mind boggling.

Everyday i look at ore at Aaliyah and thank my lucky stars to have been able to have such a wee treasure.You see we we rent sure whether i would be able to have children from previous health issues when i was younger.

The little things Aaliyah does is heart warming and watching her learn and try to figure new things out is wonderful.

As silly as this sounds i miss her when she goes to sleep and find myself still wondering into her room to just stare at her.
I used to be really naughty when she was younger and i would wake her up as i missed her so much...

Its true they do really grow to fast and i do find myself struggling to keep up with all the momentous changes that happen in that first year.

When our tyre blew out in the middle of no where and a man pulled over to help i said
"You no the worst thing is my poor baby's out here stranded and freezing"
He turned to me and said
"What that's no baby that's a girl"

From that moment on i realised hey you no what she isn't actually a baby anymore and oh my gosh has this really happened??
Its like an overnight thing they go from baby to toddler and from the moment those lil feet get going they are forever a running.


I feel for Hayds though it must be so hard for him to leave and go to work everyday especially in that first year when they take on so many new things, Hayds missed out on Aaliyah walking ,She walked the day he went back to work.
Its worse now i think that when he goes out the door she runs to the window and bangs on it and yells DAD DAD DAD !!!!!!

I am truly content and one lucky lady

Its true
The moment a child is born, The mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The women existed, but the mother, never
A mother is something absolutely new.....